At a stop

Right now I'm at a stop in my life.

I can't believe once again my mother decided that she was going to attemp to make it back to her bed, despite feeling dizzy and light headed. Of course she never made it completely, she ended up falling against the dresser and breaking her arm.

She already requires full care, but this now makes my life a bit more difficult cause what she was able to do for herself, now she can't and requires constant care. I love her to death and there isn't anything I wouldn't do for her, but sometimes I swear she's like one of my children.

Since her heart surgery back in 2000 she hasn't been herself at all. She's been in a real state of depression, which I've spoken to her doc about. Unfortunately we can't convince her to see someone and talk to them.

On top of it all, my son decided in a fit of anger to threaten to kill everyone in his school. So of course due to all the events in the past, they don't take that lightly. I know he wouldn't do anything, it was only talk, but they still have a job to do and I fully understand.

I'm just so warn down and tired.